I think I finally got it

Video: Def Leppard -- Animal

Def Leppard (Hysteria)

A wild ride, over stony ground
Such a lust for life, the circus comes to town
We are the hungry ones, on a lightning raid
Just like a river runs, like a fire needs flame
I burn for you

I gotta feel it in my blood whoa oh
I need your touch don't need your love whoa oh
And I want and I need
And I lust animal
And I want and I need
And I lust animal

Cry wolf, given mouth to mouth
Like a movin' heartbeat in the witching hour
I'm runnin' with the wind, a shadow in the dust
And like the drivin' rain, yeah, like the restless rust
I never sleep

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Cry wolf, baby cry tough
Gonna hunt you like an, an, an, an, an, animal
Gonna take your love 'n' run

[guitar solo]

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And I want and I need
And I lust animal
Take me, tame me
bite me your animal
Show me stroke me
Let me be your animal
I want, ooh yeah, animal

I know I've asked this question before but Where did all my passion go? I was watching VH1 Classic's The Making of Hysteria by Def Leppard and it dawned on me that I'm just drifting down the river of life. I'm avoiding making decisions because they mean a commitment to whatever it is that I decide to do.

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

Grey's Anatomy

The quote above encapsulates my feelings so well it's scary. Sooner rather than later you have to decide on what's best for you. You have to decide the direction that you want  your life to go on and if it's not the one that you would have preferred, then so fucking what? you made the best choice you had with the information available and without the magic crystal ball to support you.

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At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross.

Grey's Anatomy

Depending on the boundaries  you make you may or may not lead you to where you want to go but, and here is the harsh question, how do you know where do you want to go if you take no risks getting there? What's the point in seeking answers when you're afraid to ask the questions?

This is one of the things that bugs me to no end. I used to be ambitious with my career. I used to care about doing something that I'd enjoy long term at one place rather than hopping around from one job to another when things stop being to my liking.

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You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.