Seeking a balance point

Right now or later

I think I can finally start breathing again; not too deep and not for very long but I think that the worst of the first summer storm at work is over (took long enough) and I can go back to planning and thinking about what is it that I'm really looking for.

I think it all goes back to the question of Do you want satisfaction right now or are you ready and willing to work for a longer-term goal even if it means sacrificing the immediate stuff?

I've always been one for immediate gratification which has been good and bad at the same time. It has been good because it keeps you firmly grounded in the here and now without distractions as to what you're going to do, when or how are things going to get done. At the same time it has been bad because the immediateness of everything I do leaves me really vulnerable to unforeseen events and complications as it was very painfully proved when I was laid off

Single or attached

When It's Love
Van Halen (OU812)

Hey!

Everybody's lookin' for somethin'
Somethin' to fill in the holes
We think a lot but don't talk much about it
'Till things get out of control, oh!

How do I know when it's love?
I can't tell you but it lasts forever
Oh! How does it feel when it's love?
It's just somethin' you feel together
When it's love

You look at every face in a crowd
Some shine and some keep you guessin'
Waiting for someone to come into focus
Teach you your final love lesson
Ooh!

How do I know when it's love?
I can't tell you but it lasts forever
Oh! How does it feel when it's love?
It's just something you feel together

(Oh oh oh oh) Oh, when it's love
(Oh oh oh oh) You can feel it, yeah!
(Oh oh oh oh) Nothin's missin', yeah!

(Guitar Solo)

(Oh oh oh oh) Yeah, you can feel it
(Oh oh oh oh) Oh, when it's love
(Oh oh oh oh) When nothin's missing, ow!

How do I know when it's love?
I can't tell you but it lasts forever
Ooh, how does it feel when it' love?
It's just something you feel together, hey!
How do I know when it's love?
I can't tell you but it lasts forever

When it's love
Ooh, when it's love
Hey! It'll last forever
(Na na na-ah na na)
When it's love
(Na na na-ah na na)
(Na na na-ah na na)
(Na na na-ah na na)
You and I, we're gonna feel this thing together
(Na na na-ah na na) (repeat to end)

When it's love, ooh
When it's love, baby
You can feel it, yeah!
We'll make it last forever
Ooh-ooh, when it's love

It's so easy to deceive yourself when thinking/talking about relationships that you some times take the deception as the truth and live your life accordingly. It specially sucks when life has a way of slaping you with reality

Resignation or perseverance?

Find the River
REM (Automatic for the people)

Hey now, little speedyhead,
The read on the speedmeter says
You have to go to task in the city
Where people drown and people serve.
Don't be shy. your just deserve
Is only just light years to go.

Me, my thoughts are flower strewn
Ocean storm, bayberry moon.
I have got to leave to find my way.
Watch the road and memorize
This life that pass before my eyes.
Nothing is going my way.

The ocean is the rivers goal,
A need to leave the water knows
We're closer now than light years to go.

I have got to find the river,
Bergamot and vetiver
Run through my head and fall away.
Leave the road and memorize
This life that pass before my eyes.
Nothing is going my way.

There's no one left to take the lead,
But I tell you and you can see
Were closer now than light years to go.
Pick up here and chase the ride.
The river empties to the tide.
Fall into the ocean.

The river to the ocean goes,
A fortune for the undertow.
None of this is going my way.
There is nothing left to throw
Of ginger, lemon, indigo,
Coriander stem and rose of hay.
Strength and courage overrides
The privileged and weary eyes
Of river poet search naivete.
Pick up here and chase the ride.
The river empties to the tide.
All of this is coming your way