What a clusterfuck!

@work

 

Resist
Rush (Test for echo)

I can learn to resist
Anything but temptation
I can learn to co-exist
With anything but pain

I can learn to compromise
Anything but my desires
I can learn to get along
With all the things I cant explain

I can learn to resist
Anything but frustration
I can learn to persist
With anything but aiming low

I can learn to close my eyes
To anything but injustice
I can learn to get along
With all the things I dont know

You can surrender
Without a prayer
But never really pray
Pray without surrender

You can fight
Without ever winning
But never ever win
Without a fight

How do you balance frustration and compassion? How do you balance being encouraging with getting things done on time and on target?

As ashamed as I am to admit I almost lost it at work and almost ripped a coworker a new one I don't regret it, I still think it was appropriate when he tells me that something I'm looking at is not there. The 3 things that happened today were just a sign of carelesness and I don't think I really have to put up with that kind of shit, specially not this week.

I do realize that I didn't handle things the best way possible but WTF; I'm stretched thin as it is and the last thing I need is to have to deal with stuff caused by people not paying attention


elsewhere

Have you ever needed someone so bad
Def Leppard

Here I am, Im in the wrong bed again
Its a game I just cant win
There you are breathin soft on my skin, yeah
Still you wont let me in
So come on

Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away
Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldnt have
Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby, yeah

There you go, midnight promises again, yeah
But they're broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster everyday, baby
But in the morning youll be gone
And I'm alone

Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldnt have
Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad

Every dream I dream is like
Some kinda rash n reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time dont ever come
For me youre still the one
Damned if I dont, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone you just couldnt have
Did you ever try so hard that your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad, so bad
Have you ever wanted someone, have you ever wanted someone, yeah
Did you ever try so hard that your wourld just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And youre the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby, yeah
Its a game I just cant win, oh
Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
Have you ever wanted someone, you just couldnt have
Did you ever tried so hard, yeah

 


Listening:

  • Random music
  • Vienna Teng (Random Playlist)
  • REM (Find the river, Shinny Happy People, random stuff)
  • Rush (Test for echo, Vapor Trails)

Reading:

  • Rainbow Six -- Clancy

Doing:

  • Trying to Decompress

Watching:

  • The Shadow Chronicles
  • Reruns of Stargate SG1
  • Reruns of JAG