The easiest thing to do is to allow pity to swallow you and let yourself become depressed and let yourself dwell on what happened. As tempting as it is, I can't do that.... It'd be the easiest path to follow, true, but it would also be the easiest way to destroy any hope I have for a long and happy professional life.
"Nothing worth the effort comes without pain." If anything, that's what I got to keep reminding myself and what I have to continue working on. I have plans and this is only a small setback in the great scheme of life, Chico was always meant as a temporary step while I figured out what was it I wanted to do, right? Well, now I have mostly figured out what is it I want to do so pursue it... follow your heart, the rest of you can't be far behind.
One of the benefits of TTIX is that I have a much better prospect of getting the kind of job that I am really looking for. If I put my chances at 1 in 50 of getting the kind of job I like, now I'd say we're 1 in 10 or maybe even 1 in 5 :-D. There's also been a lot of (re)learning what is it that I've trained and struggled to maintain for the past 10 years.
To put it succinctly, I am a facilitator whose task is to help learners (faculty, staff or students) interact with the information in a way that is beneficial to them, that helps them learn and facilitates further acquisition of knowledge.
I think that one of the things I have to work on is conveying that to to people who are skeptic and who, like what I recently found out, don't want me to do what I trained to do. That's fine but keep the rules clear and let all the players know when the rules change, for better or worse.
Compromise versus Values and Honesty
Do or do not. There is no try
Yoda -- Empire Strikes Back
As I listened to the accessibility session from SXSW (and the guy who put together the session ought to be given an award) I am reminded of two scenes from the original Star Wars trilogy, both of them with Luke and Yoda: One where Luke is learning what it means to be a Jedi and the other one in the second Death Star's throne room where Luke turns down Palpatine's offer for absolute power and domination over the Galaxy in exchange for killing his father. This has always begged the question: What are you willing to compromise to get what you want?
- Accessibility Session from SXSW 2007 (strong Star Wars flavor)
- Linkin Park Selection
- 80's Rock Selection
- Marie Digby
- Spook Country -- William Gibson
- Shadow Command -- Dale Brown
- Traveling back to Chico
- Planning on what's next and how to get there
- Appleseed Ex-Machina