If you do good things the karma will come to you

http://www.cmu.edu/homepage/beyond/2008/summer/an-enduring-legacy.shtml

twitter clued me in that Randy Pausch, the Carnegie Mellon professor who gave The Last Lecture died today at 47.  Besides the fact that he was awesome in the way he delivered his presentation and the way that people really cared about him, he has also made me think and reflect about myself and about where I want to be and who I want to be.

I keep coming back to his phrase: "If you do good thing the karma will come to you." Over the past couple months I've always questioned whether I did the right thing or not. A lot of people have reassured me that I did that I did make a difference in my work with them over the years and that it did make a difference for those people whom I touched.  I have to admit, I'm not good at accepting compliments any more than I'm good at giving them... but you really have to ask yourself if these people are just doing to be nice or if they are saying it because they mean it.  I now choose to believe the later eve though for the longest time I've believed the earlier

And the Karma is coming my way, in the span of 72 hours, a friend tells me the job at Georgia hasn't been filled, I get and interview for said job and another friend asks me to send them a resume and a letter of interest for either training or technical documentation contract jobs.

I am more certain and hopeful about the future. Patience is a virtue and one that I should practice more often. These two quotes have been with me for years, and yet the older I get the more I tend to forget them:

"In Japan we have the phrase Shoshin, which means 'beginner's mind.' The goal of practice is always to keep our beginner's mind. Our 'original mind' includes everything within itself. This does not mean a closed mind, but actually an empty mind and a ready mind. If your mind is empty, it is always ready for anything; it is open to everything. In the beginner's mind there are many possibilities; in the expert's mind there are few."

-- Shunryu Suzukin

Perhaps the most important part of the quote below is the second paragraph. I have not remembered that you can't please everyone all the time. You did your best and if that wasn't enough, I don't really want to be part of such a team, particularly if they don't tell you where you failed.

The things that you learn in maturity aren't simple things such as acquiring information and skills. You learn not to engage in self-destructive behavior. You learn not to burn up energy in anxiety. You discover how to manage your tensions. You learn that self-pity and resentment are among the most toxic of drugs. You find that the world loves talent but pays in character.

You come to understand that most people are neither for you or against you; they are thinking about themselves. You learn that no matter how hard you try to please, some people in this world are not going to love you -- a lesson that is at first troubling and then really quite relaxing.

-- From a speech: John W. Gardner

Keep the faith
Bon Jovi (Crossroads)

Mother mother tell your children
That their time has just begun
I have suffered for my anger
There are wars that cant be won

Father father please believe me
I am laying down my guns
I am broken like an arrow
Forgive me
Forgive your wayward son

Everybody needs somebody to love
(mother, mother)
Everybody needs somebody to hate
(please believe me)
Everybody's bitching
cause they cant get enough
And its hard to hold on
When there's no one to lean on

Faith: you know you're gonna live thru the rain
Lord you got to keep the faith
Faith: don't let your love turn to hate
Right now we got to
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Lord we got to keep the faith

Tell me baby when I hurt you
Do you keep it all inside
Do you tell me als forgiven
And just hide behind your pride

Everybody needs somebody to love
(mother, father)
Everybody needs somebody to hate
(please don't leave me)
Everybody's bleeding
cause the times are tough
Well its hard to be strong
When there's no one to dream on

Faith: you know you're gonna live thru the rain
Lord you got to keep the faith
Now you know is not too late
Oh you got to keep the faith
Faith: don't let your love turn to hate
Right now we got to
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Keep the faith
Lord we got to keep the faith

Walking in the footsteps
Of society's lies
I don't like what I see no more
Sometimes I wish that I was blind
Sometimes I wait forever

To stand out in the rain
So no one sees me cryin'
Trying to wash away the pain
Mother father

There's things I've done I cant erase
Every night we fall from grace

Its hard with the world in yours face
Trying to hold on, trying to hold on

Faith: you know you're gonna live thru the rain
Lord you got to keep the faith
Faith: don't let your love turn to hate
Right now we got to keep the faith
Faith: now its not too late
Try to hold on, trying to hold on
Keep the faith