I'm in the Bay Area now. moving boxes away from where people can see them (don't want to unpack only to pack again in a few weeks), trying to seriously think what's next and what do I want to do while the choices and opportunities come my way. Perhaps is caused by a slight depression or maybe it's the finality of it all... I can no longer tell myself that nothing's going to change because it did, I'm no longer in Chico, I no longer have a job that I had while there and I can no longer tell myself that things are going to get better, because they won't at least not in the immediate future.
Now it's a matter of being honest with myself in answering these 3 questions:
- Do I want to stay in education? If so what emphasis do I want to take?
- Be honest in your assessment of why do you want a PhD?
- Where do you want to go with your life?
I know that they are rehashes of a lot of the questions I've asked myself before but now I really need/want/deserve an answer. It is now the time to think and plan and act smart rather than just react.