One of life's sudden turns

First time
Lifehouse (Who We Are)

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the scar that's under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time

Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time

 

I know I haven't blogged in a while but work got crazy as hell and I've been either at work late or trying to get enough sleep to make it through the next day. It's been a challenge to deal with work and with really stressful people at work.

I've also realized that I'm scared of relationships, both of not having/being in one and of having/being in one. I know it sounds like a paradox but that's how I'm feeling right about now. I'm scared of still being the last single guy among groups of friends or acquaintance. The options are simple: Stop hanging out with people who are coupled, stop whining and work on getting a girlfriend, or accept that what I want is unattainable and reconcile myself with the idea and move on to search for something that is attainable and won't disappoint too much.

World
Five For Fighting (Two Lights)

Got a package full of wishes
A time machine, a magic wand
A globe made out of gold
No instructions or commandments,
Laws of gravity or indecisions to uphold
Printed on the box I see ‘Acme’s Build a World to Be’
Take a chance, grab a piece
Help me to believe it

What kind of world do you want
Think anything
Let’s start at the start
Build a masterpiece
Be careful what you wish for
History starts now

Should build people or peoples
Money, funny pedestals
For fools who never pay
Raise your army, choose your steeple
Don’t be shy, the satellites can look the other way
Lose the earthquakes, keep the faults
Fill the oceans without the salt
But every man, on his own
Hey, can you dig it baby?

What kind of world do you want
Think anything
Let’s start at the start
Build a masterpiece
Be careful what you wish for
History starts now

Sunlight’s on the bridge
Sunlight’s on the way
Tomorrow’s calling
There’s more to this than love

What kind of world do you want
(x3)
Think anything
Build a masterpiece
History starts now
Starts now
Be careful what you wish for

Start now
Now...

I've been told more than once that I'm an idealist. That may be the case but how can we really succeed at something if we don't keep setting goals and challenges for ourselves? Things are calming down enough to start reflecting on what's coming next. I am a little concerned that things are getting out of hand and that they are going to get ugly before they get better, if they ever do.  I am tired of having to compromise what is right for the sake of being able to actually do my job without undue stress.

"Up until about 100 years ago, there was one question that burned in every human, that made us study the stars and dream of traveling to them. Are we alone? Our generation is privileged to know the answer to that question. We are all explorers driven to know what's over the horizon, what's beyond our own shores. And yet the more I've experienced, the more I've learnt that no matter how far we travel or how fast we get there, the most profound discoveries are not necessarily beyond that next star. They're within us, woven into the threads that bind us. All of us, to each other. The final frontier begins in this hall. Let's explore it together."