Wake up kids
We've got the dreamers disease
Age 14 we got you down on your knees
So polite, you're busy still saying please
Fri - enemies, who when you're down ain't your friend
Every night we smash their Mercedes - Benz
First we run and then we laugh till we cry

'But when the night is falling
and you cannot find the light
If you feel your dream is dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget you only get what you give

...

Fly high
What's real can't die
You only get what you give
Just don't be afraid to leave

New Radicals - Give what you get

One of the good things about not being in California is that it has allowed me to remain upbeat and positive about my being fired (ok, ok... about not having my contract renewed) and it has allowed me to reflect on things in such a way that I don't feel like I would have been able to had I stayed in California.

Truth be told I am not as heartbroken as I thought I'd be once I finally hit me that my time in Chico is through. Have to be honest and ask myself what the difference is between leaving on my own terms and leaving on Kathy's terms? There are questions that I want to ask because I want to get peace of mind.... What little I know of Kathy tells me that she's not one to change her mind even when she's proved wrong and even if she did I would never go back to a job where apparently I'm not wanted.

And I think that's part of what's been bugging me about this whole thing. I lost my balance and the object I was bored and unhappy about. Now I need to find my passion and my center. Since I got to San Jose I've been reading John Gray's How to get what you want and want what you have... It's been eye opening to say the least