Things Still Look So Weird (Year End Review, Part 2)

Love Poem with Toast by Miller Williams
From Some Jazz a While: Collected Poems

Some of what we do, we do
to make things happen,
the alarm to wake us up, the coffee to perc,
the car to start.

The rest of what we do, we do
trying to keep something from doing something
the skin from aging, the hoe from rusting,
the truth from getting out.

With yes and no like the poles of a battery
powering our passage through the days,
we move, as we call it, forward,
wanting to be wanted,
wanting not to lose the rain forest,
wanting the water to boil,
wanting not to have cancer,
wanting to be home by dark,
wanting not to run out of gas,

 

as each of us wants the other
watching at the end,
as both want not to leave the other alone,
as wanting to love beyond this meat and bone,
we gaze across breakfast and pretend.

 

Life continues on its unpredictable course with twists and turns worthy of an Agatha Christie's mystery novel. As far as work is concerned I still hold on to what I wrote in the last entry reviewing 2007 but it left a lot out. I've decided that, again, relationships take a back seat to career.  I guess I am a chicken and don't want to invest what I know will take to get the kind of relationship I want... maybe in a few years I'll want to be ready and want to settle down but the time is not right for me to do so right now (at least I don't want it to be just yet)

I've applied for a job in San Diego, at a Jesuit University, as a trainer, instructional designer and team lead for training and online course management. I don't know if I'm going to get it but the fact that I applied in and of itself is what makes me happy. I'll keep my eyes open for other options and see what happens.

UPDATE: I didn't get the email until today but they are checking references on the San Diego job! Don't know if they do this for all the people whom the interview but it's always a good sign

I know it's not good to be arrogant or overconfident. But it's always good to be confident enough to know you have a good shot at achieving your goal. And the change is tempting too 🙂

The Speed Of Love
Rush (Counterparts)

Love is born with lightning bolts
Electro-magnetic force
Burning skin and fireworks
A storm on a raging course
Like a force of nature
Love can fade with the stars at dawn
Sometimes it takes all your strength
Just to keep holding on

At the speed of love
A radiance that travels
At the speed of love
My heart goes out to you

Love is born with solar flares
From two magnetic poles
It moves towards a higher plane
Where two halves make two wholes
Like a force of nature
Love shines in many forms
One night we are bathed in light
One day carried away in the storms

At the speed of love
Nothing changes faster
Than the speed of love
My heart goes out to you

We don't have to talk
We don't even have to touch
I can feel your presence
In the silence that we share
Got to keep moving
At the speed of love
Nothing changes faster
Than the speed of love
Got to keep on shining
At the speed of love
Nothing changes faster
Than the speed of love

At the speed of love
A radiance that travels
At the speed of love
My heart goes out to you