Sometimes all you need is a kick in the ass, a reason to be ashamed for being such a wuss, and validation for what you're doing. I had all 3 today... The kick in the ass was a 40+ mile ride followed by a short run; the reason for being ashamed is this blog written by a mom to her 3-year old son who was diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia earlier this year and the validation was feeling that I wanted to do it all over again.
Last week's training was really crappy and I felt disappointed and questioned if I really wanted to do this as it's taking a lot out of me in the emotional department. I'm still homesick and I don't think that's going to change any time soon. Just as I still miss people and places in Chile almost 20 years after I left I'll always miss people and places in California...
The pictures above are a reminder of why I do this beyond wanting to help LLS. It's fun and it's challenging and I've got yet to figure out where my limits are and whether I can push through them or not... plus I keep reminding myself that I'd do IronTeam before I turn 40; there's not much time left... I'll be 37 by the time IM Arizona comes around.
Then there's the people I'm doing this to honor. as much as it is a challenge for me it is also meant to honor those people who have fought and some who continue to fight cancer... people whose courage amazes me in ways that are impossible to explain with just words.
I've always said that I'm a better person for having shared my life and my training with them. It is now up to me to continue honoring their lives and their efforts.mPerhaps the hardest thing to see and learn about is when little kids going through chemo and radiation for blood cancers... The latest one to cross my way is Cooper's Diary; a blog written by a mom for her 3 year old son who was diagnosed with Leukemia earlier this year.
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All pictures taken from Flickr