I had forgotten how hard it is to be 110% into what you're doing and what your job conflicts with your life outside. I started my new job on the 22nd and I've already had to turn down more recruiters than I had to deal with in months. The last one broke my heart... I had never been offered a Docbook related engagement and I got one yesterday. Crap is the only thing that comes to mind right now... That and my cussing the timing gods for how they laugh at me.
Beyond the consulting issue things have been going surprisingly well. It hasn't been the monster transition that I was afraid of... It hasn't been easy but it hasn't been terribly difficult. I think working with Scott and the DLT team set me up for success in this adventure.
It'll be interesting to see how things evolve moving forward.
In thinking about boats to burn (see my last post) made me think about grad school again.
Even before I started my Master's in Instructional Technology at SJSU (program which no longer exists) I thought about about going back to school and getting a PhD in Instructional Technology. It has boiled down to Learning Science and Technology Design or Anthropology of Education at Stanford. I'm not in my 20s anymore, in fact, I'm 2 and a half years from turning 40! I need to balance my wanting to go back to school with how expensive it would be and the money and time investment needed to complete the task.
I've always been afraid of rejection, even more so in this big, life altering, OMG WTH am I getting into, step in life. The one time that I did decide to apply I was turned down 'cause of a bureaucratic mistake on their end that caused my package not to be received in time for the admission deadline. By the time I straightened it all out it was too late and none of the adviser wanted to work with me.
I see the following as barriers to get into the PhD program:
- my undergraduate GPA (a 2.83 is not something to be particularly proud of)
- My inability to get a decent score in the GRE math part
- My reluctance to spend the next 5 to 7 years in school
- FEAR of not being able to capitalize on the investment
- How much is it really going to cost?
And the counterpoints of why I think I should.
- My MA GPA is almost a full point better than my undergraduate (3.77 versus 2.83)
- I have as much time as I need in order to get better at test taking 🙂
- As opposed to what?
- Then do something else but I'd have a hard time believing that a PhD from Stanford would not open doors for you
- Yeah, this may be an issue but once you're in you can always work hard to get more teaching assistantships and generate money to continue in school. I still think they key is to get into the PhD program first.
I think I've finally decided what I'm going to do. I'm going for Ironman Arizona next year with Iron Team, Once I get it out of the way then I can decide if I'll do it again a year or two later or if I'm going to stick with half iron / 70.3 distances as my preferred endurance races.
Two of my best friends in California are getting married! I think it shouldn't have caught me by surprise as much as it did... but damn, that picture of Keeley wearing the ring was astonishing and not just because the ring looked awesome on her hand but also because it's one more couple of friends who are hitching up. It used to bother me a lot more than it does now.
It just means getting travel arrangements for California (and getting a few pairs of running shoes in the process) and spend good time with friends I didn't realize how much I missed until today.
I thought I was 100% committed to IronTeam but after weekends like the last I'm down to about 90% certainty or even less.
I also thought that moving out of California would be the great adventure and the best way to challenge myself. It was and it has been but not in the way that I expected it ... I've looked at the support structures and the people I had in California and how much I miss them now that I have to work on discipline and willpower alone.
It's kinda hard to believe that it's only been in Georgia only for a month. It's been intense and satisfying... I've also learned a lot about myself, what I want and what I'm willing to do to achieve it.
It's not the heat, it's the humidity
The heat is not what bothers me about the weather in Georgia. It's the f*****g heat that kills me. I really have to figure how to carry more fluids and WTO be more consistent in drinking.
TNT still rocks!
It's been a crazy training month to say the least. On 8/21 I did the bike course for Augusta. Let me tell you that pit was an awesome session of torture but that I enjoyed it tremendously
As I posted elsewhere I'm still trying to figure out if I'm doing iron team or not. I'm leaning towards going forward with it but there are still a ton of unanswered questions.
Augusta is the day after my birthday... *sigh* my 36th birthday... And then the beer and the party is Sunday and Monday! That rocks!
I'm good at what i do 🙂
It always takes me a while to accept the fact that I'm good at what I do. I've been validated twice today (8/27) and it feels damn good to have hit the ground running and not trip while doing so.
The kind of professional validation doesn't happen very often so you should treasure the instances when it does happen and you should appreciate the people who offer unsolicited feedback.
Professionally I think I'm finally at the point where I can run with things and be happy with the results.