Planning Ahead

There are a lot of things left to decide... One of the things on the plate for after I get a car is whether I want to move closer to Atlanta or to Atlanta itself. The pros so far outweigh the cons... Particularly if I'm accepted for Iron Team then Atlanta becomes a necessity and with the non-existent public transportation in Georgia then I hope yup can see why I really need this. Plus All my teammates and friends live closer to Atlanta, I miss being able to get on the bus and go to places without having to take cabs.
I'm also re-evaluating grad school. Despite being soured to the whole concept I have to admit that the idea still holds some appeal. Either as a professional culmination (if I decide to stay in instructional technology) or as a way to start something different yet again... Which is very appealing and very scary at the same time.</p
Emory university in Atlanta has a 5 week I introduction to Kyudo course. I so want to do it... you have no idea. Then I have to find a place to set up a Naginata study group / dojo before too long... I don't want to stagnate in that department any more than I already have.

But I guess the biggest question is whether I want to stay in Carrollton long term for work or if I want to move onto something else closer to Atlanta. Don't misunderstand me... I love UWG and Carrollton to a degree but I miss being able to do things like I used to in the Bay Area... I want to go to the theater, movies, good restaurants and so many other things that I'm very ambivalent about my place of residence. If I had a car it would be a non issue but I don't so it is.

Refining Goals or Not Doing So Much It’ll Kill Me

so don't sit back and watch the days go by
are you ever gonna live before you die
and when things fall apart
the world has come undone
leave it all behind
leave the loneliness alone
you wait forever blind

Days Go By - Lifehouse

 

Ok, I have only a finite amount of time (4 months 1 week) to accomplish the following:

  • Test for Ni Dan in Naginata
  • Finish the Kaplan course and take the GRE
  • Run the triathlon in June (and all the work involved in getting my lazy fat ass ready for that)
  • Finish the basic running sequence at least twice (5 weeks each)
  • Start taking tango lessons with the Stanford tango club
  • figure out if I can take classes at Stanford to finish my BA in anthropology before I can apply for an MA in anthropology.

in talking with my trainer, he pointed out that I am trying to do too much at one time. It took a week of being continually exhausted to realize that he’s right (don’t you hate it when someone is right about your own actions?)

So I’m having to pair down what I want to do… and do it drastically.  The question is what to take out and what to keep till the end of the spring semester (sometime in March)

  • Test for Ni Dan in Naginata
  • Finish the Kaplan course and take the GRE

These two have to get done both because the timing is not my own and because they are important enough that any delay will be dangerous both personally and in terms of reaching the goals that they each mean.

  • Run the triathlon in June (and all the work involved in getting my lazy fat ass ready for that)

This is an ongoing objective that will be met shortly before I am to leave for UGA. I am keeping this positive attitude that I will be accepted, it’s one of the things that keep me going forward with a smile.

  • Finish the basic running sequence at least twice (5 weeks each)

This is just for fun (and who the hell thought I’d say running is just for fun). Running is helping me get in much better shape than I thought it would, so it’s worth keep the pace up. It’ll also help me for the triathlon so it’s another reason to move ahead with it.

  • Start taking tango lessons with the Stanford tango club
  • figure out if I can take classes at Stanford to finish my BA in anthropology before I can apply for an MA in anthropology.

These 2 can wait a little longer. They are the backups to what I’m really wanting to do. The tango is another way to stay busy and the classes at Stanford are a way to keep my brain from rotting.

Why Do You Want a PhD?

This has been a lot in my mind lately. Why, after all these years, have you decided to go for a PhD and teach in a 4-year school?

It has a lot to do with family and the pursuit of education. Both my parents had Master’s degrees (in the case of my mom make that 2 master’s) and they both always encouraged me and pushed me to pursue academics.  Yet I have hesitated to pursue a doctorate because of the time commitment and the work it would involve or so I have told myself.

I had to send a statement of academic research interest for my application at UGA and it started me thinking about the real reasons why I want a PhD.

I want to teach and I want to do research… that much I’ve known ever since I did my Master’s at SJSU. 

One of my biggest frustrations has been that either in school or at work research has been little to non-existent.  I want to be able to do research and work hard at doing that and be able to write, present and share my experiences with others.

Teaching has always been a passion; that’s why I became a trainer and involved myself in Instructional Design and Technology.  Transferring knowledge and enjoying seeing the faces of people when they get it, when they realize that they can do something that they didn’t think they could do.

One of the earliest professional memories is Michelle Lamberson talking about the impact that one trainer (or teacher or facilitator) can have by touching one person who turns into helping 25 others (assuming a standard sized classes). You get the picture… teachers have this huge capability of affecting others in ways…

But I’ve been one very lucky SOB in other ways too. I’ve been blessed with people around me who have been teachers, mentors and friends well beyond what I deserve. Two of those people come to mind: Steve Ybarrola and Cris Guenter.

Steve and I go back to my freshman year at Central. I still remember I got a C in his Intro to Anthropology class :). But ever since then he has been an awesome teacher, someone who has encouraged and facilitated my intellectual curiosity and who has allowed me to do most of my research without questioning it, always with a kind word and a smile to make me move forward.

I even made it as a field researcher when I went to the Basque Country. How many people have the academic and growth opportunities I’ve had with Steve?

Cris and I met in Chico while I was working there.

Initially it was a working relationship that was very intellectually stimulating and gratifying intellectually.  It was nice to work with someone who had patience and enough experience working with technology to understand that things don’t always work as intended.

The most important part of these two interactions is to see the impact they had in my life. Steve in particular has deeply influenced my life both in the academic and personal sides.  If I can impact one person in the way they impacted me, I’ll consider my professional career successful.

That’s why I want a PhD. I see it as the only (or one of the few) way to teach and, maybe, have the impact that Steve and Cris have had in me.

Remembering Randy Pausch

I picked the video of Randy Pausch’s memorial at Carnegie Mellon as a show. He had such an impact over a wide variety of people that it’s hard not to want to emulate him.  Learning how to impact people is where the professional and human challenge really lies.